apla de3outo...

thumamai prwth dhmotikou phgaina.guriza sto spiti kai elega sthn mama mou
poso omorfh einai auth h daskala mou,ekeinh xamogelouse.den katalave pote oti
kati kruvotan pisw apo auton ton en8ousiasmo gia thn panemorfh daskala mou.
me to pou genniomaste mas dinoun ta protupa ths gunaikas kai tou antra,
megalwsa me thn eikona tou mpampa mou na koimatai me thn mama mou.
to otidhpote allo mou fainotan afusiko.
 mia mera hr8e spiti i aderfi mou kai mou eipe oti ths thn peftei mia
gunaika.egw e3wfrenwn phra thlefwno thn kopela kai thn evrisa.poia einai auth?
kai giati einai diaforetikh apo mena? ustera h le3h lesvia mou fainotan
kati apokroustiko.sto gumnasio eixa mia filh pou mou dihgountan romantikes
istories me thn kopela ths..ekeinh htan me konto malli,antrikes fardies mplouzes,
parapanisia kila kai etsi eftia3a sto mualo mou pws oles oi lesvies einai asxhmes
kai aperipoihtes opws h filh mou..meta apo kapoion kairo oti mou e3istorouse
to evriska fusiologiko kai enw mou eixe perasei apeires fores i eikona na filaw
gunaika otan me rwtousan an 8a phgaina pote me kapoia apantousa pws"den nomizw
na to ekana alla den me enoxlei na to vlepw kai den me noiazei ti kanei o ka8enas
sto krevati tou".eixa sxeseis me antres alla panta kati eleipe..kati emene keno..
den me kalupse kamia sxesh.
 sto lukeio parathrhsa ston eauto mou thn apegnwsmenh anagkh na dokimasw..evlepa
kopeles omorfes kai tis sumpa8ousa polu gia ane3hghto logo xwris na xoume milhsei
kai pote..ustera paradextika meta vias oti den htan aplh sumpa8eia.tis h8ela..
tis h8ela sto krevati mou kai sthn zwh mou genikotera.eixa sxesh me ena paidi
kai h katastash arxise na ginetai kourastikh.etuxe na gnwrisw ena paidi pou ton
elegan oloi "gay".ka8olou den me apasxolouse pernaga perissoteres wres mazi tou
para me to agori mou.ekeinos den mou eixe pei pote gia keinon.prospoioutan pws tou
aresan mexri kai files mou.wspou mia mera panw sthn suzhthsh tou eipa to poso 8a h8ela
na dokimasw me gunaika.alla mou fainotan apiasth auth h empeiria.elampsan ta matia tou
kai mou leei "ama 8es mporw na se voh8hsw".mou gnwrise mia filh tou kai mou eipe oti
htan lesvia.htan polu wraia kopela.thn koitousa kai skalwna me tis wres na epe3ergazomai
tis leptomereies sto proswpo tis kai na plhsiazw oso mporw diakritika gia na murisw to
arwma ths.
 arxisa parea me authn kai ton filo mou kai vgename suxna.i epi8umia mou eixe ftasei
sto apokorufwma.ma akoma fovomoun kai den h3era ti..phgame se ena club ena savvato sto gkazi,
mou eipan oti einai gay club kai na mhn troma3w.egw to epaiza 8arralea asxeta pou
oso eftana ston stoxo mou ta podia mou etreman..mphkame sto magazi kai eida antres kai
gunaikes na filiountai xwris kanena distagmo.kai giati na distazoun diladi?profanos
eixan apodextei auto pou einai.koitousa ton kosmo gurw mou kai epe3ergazomoun tis eikones
sto mualo mou ustera skeftika pws"edw anikw,8elw kai egw na noiwsw thn eleu8eria ths skepshs mou".
hmoun pio sigourh apo pote gi auto pou i8ela.emoiaza san na vriskomai mprosta apo ena potami
kai eprepe na phdh3w apenanti,mono pou den skeftika pote pws an to phdh3w den 8a mporesw na
gurisw pote pisw..pisw sthn str8 zwh mou.ma den me enoiaze giati h str8 zwh htan polu vareth gia mena..
 h kopela sthn parea gurise kai me filhse apotoma.den to perimena..8umamai mono pws i mousikh
stamathse na akougetai kai to mono pou akouga htan h kardia mou na xtupaei toso grhgora les kai
eixa tre3ei ston mara8wnio.pote den eixa noiwsei o eautos mou mexri ekeinh thn stigmh..
 thn epomenh mera hmoun toso en8ousiasmenh pou den mporousa na to krupsw.alla pernaga to pio
duskolo stadio.to na apodextw ton eauto mou..eprepe na to pw stis files mou.ma pws 8a antidrousan?
kai ama me apomakrunan?kai ama den me h8elan pia?egw thn apofash mou thn eixa parei kai skeftika
pws an pragmatika me agapane 8a to apodextoun.ki omws to apodexthkan oles..me duskolia vevaia arxika..
 otan parousiaza ton eauto mou panta anefera thn le3h"bi"..akoma me tromaze h le3h "lesvia"?
den me noiazei na to lew alla me noiazei mhn to ma8oun oi goneis mou kai stenaxwre8oun.
psemmata....fovamai pws an to ma8oun den 8a me antimetwpizoun to idio kai 8a ginomoun
mia gnwsth-agnwsth sto idio mou to spiti.
 me thn kopela ustera apo ligo kairo to spasame kai epesa se kata8lipsh..den h3era oti mporei
na uparxei tosos ponos.san"kainouria" hmoun eualwth kai apeirh na antepe3el8w se tetoia katastash.
o kairos perase..katapia thn stenaxwria mou kai sunexisa na perpataw sto monopati pou epele3a.
me sumferei pou den mou fainetai to ti se3oualikes protimhseis exw kai epilegw egw poios 8a to ma8ei.
me plhsiazoun antres kai einai toso sigouro pws mporw na tous exw oti wra 8elw toulaxiston
sto krevati mou..ma an me plhsiasei gunaika den einai toso eukolo kai vareto.giati pote den 3ereis
ti mporei na ginei,ola einai aprovlepta kai ola einai pi8ana..oso pono mou exoun prokalesei gunaikes
pote den 8a ta kataferei antras oute sto miso..ma den mporw na sumvivastw me to "eukolo"kai na kanw
sxeseis me antres kai panta na menei auto to keno mesa mou..na eimai me kapoion pou den ais8anomai tipota..
 h3era polu kala pws den 8elw na to dokimasw apla gia empeiria kai enoiw8a polu kala otan telika...
phdh3a to potami..xreiazetai dunamh kai kaneis den eipe oti einai eukolo..apla lupamai tous an8rwpous pou
den to paradexontai kai sugkatoikei sto swma tous enas agnwstos pou den exoun gnwrisei pote..
apla tolma...mporei na einai pio endiaferon... ;)